The beginning of the end

• 1: Let’s start with a tricky one; what is the real reason you are confused right now?
• 2: Do you ever get “good morning” texts from anyone?
• 3: If your significant other smoked pot, would you care?
• 4: Do you find it easy to trust others?
• 5: What were you doing at 11PM last night?
• 6: You’re drunk and lost walking down the road; who is with you?
• 7: What would you do if you found out you had been cheated on?
• 8: Are you close with your dad?
• 9: I bet you kissed someone last night, right?
• 10: What are you listening to?
• 11: You can only drink ONE liquid for the rest of your life - what is it?
• 12. Do you like hickeys?
• 13: What time do you go to bed?
• 14: Is there someone who continuously lets you down?
• 15: Can you text as quickly with one hand as you do both?
• 16: Do you always answer your texts?
• 17: Do you hate the person you fell the hardest for?
• 18: When was the last time you talked to one of your best friends?
• 19: Is there someone that makes you happy every time you see them?
• 20: What was your last thought before you went to bed last night?
• 21: Is anyone else in the room with you?
• 22: Do you believe what goes around comes around?
• 23: Were you happier four months ago than you are now?
• 24: Is there someone you wish you could fix things with?
• 25: In the past week, have you cried?
• 26: What colour is the shirt you are wearing?
• 27: Do people ever call you by your last name?
• 28: Is anyone ignoring you right now?
• 29: Do you have a best friend?
• 30: Would it be hard seeing someone else kiss the last person you kissed?
• 31: Who was your last call from?
• 32: Are you mad at anyone?
• 33: Have you ever kissed someone older than you?
• 34: How old will the last person you kissed be on his/her next birthday?
• 35: How many more days until your birthday?
• 36: Do you have any summer plans yet?
• 37: Do you have any good friends of the opposite sex?
• 38: Are you keeping anything from your best friend(s) now?
• 39: Do you have a secret that you’ve never told anyone?
• 40: Have you ever regretted kissing someone?
• 41: Do you think age matters in relationships?
• 42: Are you available?
• 43: How many people have you had real, strong feelings for since high school ended?
• 44: If you had to get a piercing (not ears), what would you get?
• 45: Do you believe exes can be friends?
• 46: Do you regret anything?
• 47: Honestly, what’s on your mind right now?
• 48: Did you ever lose a best friend?
• 49: Was your last kiss a mistake?
• 50: Why aren’t you pursuing the person you like?
• 51: Has the last person you kissed ever seen you cry?
• 52: Do you still talk with the person you LAST kissed?
• 53: What was the last thing you ate?
• 54: Did you get any compliments today?
• 55: Where are you going on your next vacation?
• 56: Do you own anything from other countries?
• 57: Are most of your friend guys or girls?
• 58: Where have you lived most of your life?
• 59: When was the last time you took a long drive?
• 60: Have you ever played Spin the Bottle?
• 61: Have you ever TPd someone’s house?
• 62: Who do you text the most?
• 63: What was the last movie you saw?
• 64: What’s preventing your current boyfriend/girlfriend from going back to their ex?
• 65: How many boyfriends/girlfriends did you have in 2010?
• 66: Is the last person you kissed younger than you?
• 67: Do you curse around your parents?
• 68: Are you happy with where you live?
• 69: Do you collect anything?
• 70: What’s your favourite colour?
• 71: Does the last song you listened to remind you of anyone?
• 72: Has anyone ever cheated on you?
• 73: What are your plans for tomorrow?
• 74: Do you have siblings over the age of twenty-one?
• 75: Does your last ex have a job?
• 76: What would you do if you found out your most recent ex was in a relationship?
• 77: Where is your cellphone?
• 78: What colour is your cellphone?
• 79: What did you dream of last night?
• 80: Are you atheist?
• 81: Will you change your name when you get married?
• 82: Are you ready for autumn weather?
• 83: Have you had any big storms recently?
• 84: What kind of bottoms are you wearing?

I never get attached this quickly to anyone. But even though I’m still weary about things, mostly that I’ll mess this up somehow like always, I can’t help but already have such strong feelings for him.

Unfortunately I’m cynical and I always think in terms of “we’ll break up eventually” which I guess is part of the problem. But I don’t want to think that way. Based on how things are going and what is in store for us, I really don’t want to. I guess the practical thing would be to end things at the end of the summer before I leave, so things are easier on us, but I don’t want that to be an option. 

I know this is different from what I’m used to, I can feel it and I know it will only keep getting better. Of course I’m scared, and I don’t want to get hurt again, but things just feel…right with him. I couldn’t be happier just at the thought of him.

This will be my favorite summer so far. 

Everything is so amazing and I’m so so so happy.

And I have a whole chocolate cake to myself. So. SO. Happy.